Forever

It's been forever since I last posted properly! I have no excuses this time, I have to start writing more!
A lot has happened since my post on Saturday as well. I lost one of my best friends. She wasn't really lost but we've been arguing for a while so we decided to just back off from each other completely. I'm not distressed too much, but I still do feel sad. Night time is probably the worst. When I go to bed, its when I can't talk to my friends or watch house to distract me. Its when all the thoughts I'm pushing away comes back and everything really hits me. I'm dealing with it I guess. My friends are there for me but even though I know they would help me, its quite hard for them to do so. The best they can do is distract me, but I have to think these thoughts eventually so I might as well do it now so my summer isn't totally ruined. I also don't want to bother them too much. Its something I should deal with not them so I don't tell them everything on my mind.

Now on to less depressing topics!
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Megs

Somethings frustrate me.

I don't know if it is all in my head of if it is really happening but I feel like something's changed. At first I thought it was the other person but now its happening with everyone I know so now I feel like it's me who has changed. Only I don't think that I have changed in anyway. Everyone around me in school is beginning to sound condescending. I would like to point out that I am not stupid, there is no need to talk like you expect me to make a mistake. I know what I'm doing, but thank you for pointing it out. Speak to me properly, the same way you would expect to be spoken to. I can understand and I do understand. If you carry on doing so, you will end up driving me away. And if it happens, don't pretend like it's my fault it happened.

Some other thing that frustrates me - my teachers. When they ask a question, I answer it. It's expected. However, every time I answer something, they look over my head and wait till someone else says the right answer, my answer. I understand if they want to give others a chance but only if they gave me one in the first place! It started with my science teacher, then it progressed on to my math teacher, and now my french teacher. I just wish that they would give me a chance to say something instead of ignoring me.

I know I might be overreacting but I just needed to get it all out there.
More posts coming up.

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